Nope.

“Knowledge is knowing that a tomato is a fruit. Wisdom is knowing not to put it in a fruit salad.” — Miles Kington

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If you’ve read this blog for a while, you know I completed my first mini-triathlon this past summer. If this sounds familiar, you also know that it was more than somewhat tough for me.

So when I received an email yesterday announcing that the 2015 registration for this particular event is now open (and do I want to sign up??), my heart started thumping anxiously and the panic started to radiate from my chest through my arms.

I’ve read that one of the best ways to stay motivated to meet your running goals is to say it out loud to someone — let them know what you’re doing. This way, you’ll feel more accountable to make your goal a reality. In the spirit of that advice…I’m stating my goal for this triathlon before 2015 even gets here: I’m not going to do it. Nope. Not gonna do it. The ONLY way I would participate is if someone did the swim for me. Then I’d be happy to bike and run the rest.

For the first time in my life, I’ve decided that I have a limitation — and I’m going to keep it.

Most of my adult life, I’ve had little tolerance when people say they “can’t” do something and give up. I’m a firm believer that you can do whatever you want with enough desire, determination, and perseverance.

I still believe that.

Could I push myself to do this event again? Yep. Could I possibly take steps to improve and not be such a wreck the second time out? Sure. But at what point do you determine that the cost outweighs the benefit? Apparently, this is the point for me, because I felt a wave of relief when I gave myself permission to say, “Uncle. I’m out.”  Cop out? Not at all. Self-compassion? YOU BET.

I’ll have plenty of other opportunities to push myself out of my comfort zone and build up my inner strength as I continue to run and try new things. But this is an opportunity to exercise wisdom instead.

So I’m not gonna sign up. There. I said it.

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